Wednesday, October 5, 2011

What Nobody Told You About Trying to Conceive...

This is a collection of thoughts from women facing the emotional roller coaster of infertility. Some of it may make you cry, some of it may make you smile. The important thing is to realize that you are not alone in your struggle. Infertility may be the most difficult time of your life spiritually, emotionally, financially, physically and mentally. If you are personally experiencing infertility (TTC longer than 12 months) my heart and prayers go out to you. God bless you!

That your sex life would start to resemble a science experiment.

That the longer you TTC, the more PG women spring up around you.

That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person.

That one day you wouldn't mind checking your CM or CP to see if it is your fertile period.

That I should have gone to medical school like my mom wanted, because I've had to do so much medical research by now just to figure out what was wrong with me, I might as well be an M.D.

That I would know more about the female reproductive system and menstrual cycle than most of the doctors I go to.

That living your life in 2 week increments would be the norm.

That you never knew how much you wanted to see those 2 pink lines......until only one shows up every month

That wishing really hard for something doesn't make it happen, and staring at your chart doesn't make it change!That a pregnancy doesn't always equal a baby.

That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.

That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico.

That you wouldn't know how important a baby was to you until it took so long and you realized what you were willing to go through to make it happen.

That it is insensitive to ask people when they are having a baby!

That women who do get pregnant are so very blessed!

That medicine and procedures are not a sure fire way to get pregnant but it is a sure fire way to lose money fast.

That it does not get easier, each cycle is harder than the last.

That I wouldn't want to hold or see someone's baby because it just hurts way too much.

That I would find it extremely difficult to be happy for other people's pregnancies and I would burst into tears upon hearing their news.That one day all of this will make us stronger.

That no one I know (in my non FF life) would have any understanding as to how I feel.

That infertility is not as rare as I was led to believe.

That my faith in God would be tested heavily.

That I am very bitter towards unmarried accidental pgcys, and slightly bitter towards married accidental pgcys.

That I would know about other peoples' BD, CP, CM but not know there real name, their DH's name, or their occupation.

That I could spend so much time and money on figuring out what my body is doing (or not doing).

That one person could be "cursed" with so many different fertility problems.

That sex would ever become a chore!

That actually having a miscarriage would allow me to understand the loss that others have felt.

That miscarriage would make me want a baby even more than before!

That I would become NUMB to the wonderful world around me that I already have!

That I would become addicted to POAS and not sleep at night because I couldn't wait to POAS in the morning!

That I would be so sad.

That I would learn to speak in code.
Like I checked Cm which was EWCM but when I will POAS who knows, dh won't let me for fear of BFN

That your friendships with your real life girlfriends would suffer because they got pregnant after being off the pill for 3 weeks.

That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things you will ever have to go through.

That you HAVE to have sex even though you don't feel like it, but because your FM says high or peak.

That I spent years trying not to get pregnant, and praying for my period. Now I can't seem to lose the witch!

It's good to know I am not alone.

That I would have to listen to people complain about their children as if they were burdens while a child is the one thing in the world I want the most. Also, they sound as if they are trying to talk me out of having kids, like it is the absolute worst thing that could ever happen to me.

That you would be keeping it a secret from everyone.That the broken heart you feel each month that is equal to the pain you feel when you lose a loved one.

That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so bad.

(Adapted from TwoWeekWait.com)

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